today i..

damn i just sleep for 4 or 5 hours.. ==

really sleepy.. x__x

LOL but well i have to wake up earlier since there's no one at home..

i become a guard dog today LOL :P

im tired..

sheesh seriously, i'm really sleepy..

wanna sleep but i can't. x__x

can't wait to go with my friends today and watch Prince of Persia..

well i think i'll fall asleep when the movie start though ==

i hope it won't happen x__x

i've been craving for this movieee!!

attention!

careful, i'm gonna change lots about this blog page ;)

wall faced..

okay, anyone have friends who're being wall-faced?

wall-faced means people who're not realizing their mistakes, even though we've mentioned it clearly in front of them..

well, i got one "friend" who're being a wall-faced person.

this started when i introduced her to my childhood friend.

just say her name is A, and my childhood friend is B.

A always telling me, through texts or calls, saying that she don't like him and B is not her type..

while B, always texting and calling me, asking my opinion about A, and his chance to be A's bf.

well i was like a cupid since i always saying good things bout A to B.

finally B completely fallen in love with A.

stink love, i say.

A was asking my best friend, C, about a way to make B forgets her.

well it clearly showed me that A really don't like B.

if that so, then why that time she always replies B's texts to her, and answers B's call to her.

what a hypocrites.

she finally becomes B's gf.

i gone mad, remembering A was using her ex to pick her up and transports her wherever she wants,

i'm sure she's going to use B to be her new transport so she don't have to waste money on transports if she's going somewhere.

i mentions something a lil bout her, and she suddenly saying me and C are trash.

but then she suddenly asked why and what is her fault, being so confident that the one me and C were talking about is her.

well, she's right, me and C was talking bout her.

but what makes her can realize me and C was talking about her?

hey that's quite weird :))

she said she feels forgotten since ME AND C NEVER TEXT HER OR ELSE..

HELLOOOO we've texting you, asking you to go out with us but you didn't reply that time!

damn =_=

now who're the one who must be the trash? >:(

now i know her real side!

damn why i can be friends with such a hypocrites person like her?!

been a long time.. LOL

well been a long time since my last time writing a blog here.. hehe :)

really sorry for not writing blog for a long time..

just trying to healing myself..

you know, i hate crying and sighing bout things..

well things are getting bored these days, with no new things everyday.

i don't know how many times i've been thinking to end this all.. LOL

hahaha but i'm still here, still alive, still breathing..

it's just..well, complicated for me.

one, i still can't forget him..

it's been a month already, but i still can't forget him, though..

i dunno why.. and i also don't know why my chest still aching anytime i think or remember anything that connects to him.

well.. it's really ridiculous to know he likes someone else just right one month after he finally accepts me..

i don't know if he really can't tell it to me because he don't wanna hurt me..

but i really want to know, the real reason why he was hiding that..

and also the reason why he sometimes ignores me..

i really want, and need to know why is that..

until now, he sometimes talk to me..and ignores me..

it's.. well i'm not hoping he won't talk to me again, no..

i.. well just want to talk to him.. or spend my time with him..

because i can't.. i really can't forget him and i don't know how..

ahahahaha.. sheesh.. looks like the quote "first love never ends" and "first love always failed" is true..

two, my 3rd sis in law is really annoying..

she don't wanna do any home chores..

she always make mom do it all..

even she make my mom have to wash all of her laundries..

i hate her..

i really hate her lazy behaviour..

she may be pregnant now..

but she still can doing home chores!

she even don't want to wash dishes..

she just laying on her bed and watching tv or being busy with her phone..

i wonder..

what if one day she, and my 3rd bro have their own home?

my mom or me is not her servant..

i can't believe i'll face such complicated probs..

i'm happy to solve one prob, but soon, more probs will come and stressing me again..

i really don't know what to do..

want to end this for once and forever..

but i can't..

Something i always wanted to say, something i always think about..

Wondering what i'll say in this blog..

Dang i've write some attention blogs which mentions things like: should i change my "LunaticLight" name and i have made a deviantart account (FINALLY)..

well in this one i really wants to say what i always wanted to say..

especially for my online friends :D

I've start using internet since 2 or 3 years ago, and the one who were suggesting me to use internet is my friend, who're actually my senior who cared about me who were an antisocial that time.

She told me to try to use internet since i don't have many friends and some of my classmates bullied me and making fun of me..

I was in grade 7 when they start to bully me, and i know internet when i'm in grade 9.

Well the first social network i ever use is friendster.

I don't know since when i turned into a role-player in friendster..

I forgot, really. :D

I was using the name "Freya" as a fake name because of safety reason..

that time, i still remember those that i have met in friendster when i joined friendster for the first time..

Cheska.

I still remember that she's the first friend i met in friendster..

Well, i think i do have some more but since i've lost contact with them..

I never know how are they and what are they doing now.

Me and Cheska are still friends, until now.

and i'm sooo glad to remember it ^^

and i guess she was the person who teach me lots of things.. :)

after Cheska, i meet some more friends and being good friends..

Zax, Din, Van, Serge, Kevin, Frances, Jan Paul, Jesica, Satoshi, Wayne, Jenny, Natalie, and Rai.

Cheska is very nice, she's really an important friend for me. Well sometimes maybe i'm kinda annoying to her.. But it's only because i don't want to be ignored, i really don't want to feel lonely anymore.. LOL but well that's useless because i do feel lonely at times, and it's not anyone's fault. I called Cheska "sister", "mommy", "bff", and "mommy cheesecake".

I do feels like she's really my big sister. She's nice and also..well funny :))

Zax is Cheska's boyfriend-- woops i spilled it 8D

they're so suitable to be together, and i do really love them both ^^

Zax is really nice and caring, feels like a real big brother for me--well believe it or not, even my brothers never being soo nice to me like Zax did. :))

I called Zax "brother", "daddy", "puppy", and "bff" even though i actually don't used to call anyone with bff everytime..

I usually called him daddy :p

Din!

Din is a very snobbish but cute friend of mine (hehehe).. she's also one of those who're very important for me.

I do really like her. She's nice, multi-talented, and cute.

She can be ebil at times and looks like she forgot that we were calling each other "ebil partner" :P

I called Din "Dinny", "sister", "bff", and sometimes calling her "auntie" :D just teasing. hehehe ^^

Van? he's Dinny's bf--uh oh i spilled it again :P

he's kinda cold at times, but when i talked to him, i really feels he treat me like a lil sister and well that's what i always dreamed for, being treated like a lil sister.

he's also can be funny at times.. well telling the truth, i don't know much about Van.

I called Van "Vanny" (even though he always said 'cut of the NY' :))), "Bro", "bff".

and like what i said before, i never use bff to call someone lol

Serge..

he's really my dream brother LOL

he, sometimes reminds me of my 4th brother, cute, and cheerful.

well he's not active these days, i don't know why.

maybe he's busy hanging out and being dragged by his friends there hahah ^^

he's really outgoing, and really nice. for me, he's really important because i never meet a brother like him before, and maybe never will.

I called him "Bro", and "Kebob" at times since he likes to call me sish kebob LOL

i'm not a kebob sheesh ==

Kevin?

oh well it's just being months since i become friends with him.

He's really funny, fun to talk with, caring, kind, really nice, and sometimes acts like a real leader. :)

He's funny because he really humourist, like when me, Kevin, JP, and Jes watched a video from JP, he make a new quote: H-YES! ... LOL =))

well i havent know much about him since he's quite busy at times, i do miss him LOL

he loves coffeeeeeeee------same like me lol but i'm not that addicted to coffee like him :p

I called Kevin "Bro", "Coffee mate", "bff", and "Kevvy" at times lol

Frances!

or Angel..

she's really.. uhhhhhh a real Lady Ashe for me :D she's really suitable to be Ashe, yeahhh she's really into her character. :)

i don't talk much to her, anywayyss..

don't know much about her..

but i know she's kind, funny at times, caring, and well loyal to her friends, i can see that lol

I called her "Angel", "sister", "bff", and "Ashe" at times..

well she do deserve Ashe's name, really suits her :)

Jan Paul or JP..

hemmmmmm i don't know much about him..

just know he's kinda mature for his age. he's still 15 but he.......well don't act like 15. LOL

he know when to make great jokes, i like how he talked, it looks serious, but funny. (WTH)

i just called him "JP" and sometimes called him "Papa JP" since he's so matured, and "bro" at times lol

Jesica...

...

Damn she's one of funniest friends i ever had. :))

she's really funny, really!!

i heard her voice through YM call, sorry if i havent buy a mic, but i promise i'll buy it ASAP when i got enough money..

she got angelic voice, actually.. but err.. sometimes she's ebil.. D:

i called her "Jes", and i havent got any names for her since i don't know much about her..

Satoshi.

chocobo.. lol XD

he's Cheska's friend, he's in Canada now..i guess? lols

he's kinda cold....but funny. he likes horror and looks like he likes science fiction too. (am i right?)

he don't like annoying person.. .__. sometimes i thought he hates me because i'm being really annoying at times..

he's Jenny's bf---oookkaaayyy i spilled it again =x= lols

like the other he sometimes treated me like a lil sister.. and well he irritates me when he called me "cactuar with fangs" and now i'm kinda used to it.....even i start to like that name weh ==

i called him "chocobo", "satoshishi", "chocobohead", and "bro".

Wayne..

oh God ==

well.. hard to say, but i have to say it? lol

uhh well after all, he's really a nice guy. he's kind, and caring also.

now he's kinda ignoring me..

i dunno why but well it's his choice to do so.. ~__~

he's in his NS since he live in Singapore, and only online around friday to sunday afternoon (i guess)..

i called him "bro". always.

Jenny..

she looks like an angel. :D

really lol, and she's really kind too.

she's funny at times, she's caring and nice.

i don't really know her much because i havent talk much to her..

i called her "sis", "Jen Jen", and "bff" at times..

Thanks for calling me bff, Jenny :D

Natalie, or Sasori Uchiha for now :D

she's unique!

trust me, she is..^^

she's kind, caring, and really funny!

i like her because she's really unique..

i don't know her much, and i havent talk much to her these days.. i'm kinda missing her..

i called her "sister" only.

Rai.

wahhhhh he's a disaster at times.. @__@

but well me sometimes feels he's funny and unique..

i guess he's just interested with cute and pretty girls XP

and i know i'm not in those cute and pretty categories *knowing it by myself!!*

ahaha.. XD

i never called him "bro" since he don't allow me to..

lols i'm trying to be one of his friends, i sometimes think he never really accept me as a friend.

Well those are..

actually, are some of my friends who're being so important for me.

i'm sometimes thinking if i need to write this since i never really know what to tell them about what i think about them..

most of them are nice to me..

but i don't know if they really mean it.

but well..?

i do know that some of my thinking are just because me thinking too much about it..

i never cry again, i never try to think negative about my friends, i just following my heart and that's what i'm trying to believe....that i have such a group of great friends..